Nostalgia and I have a funny relationship. I'm a bit of a fan looking back on the times ... probably because I can't imagine there are any good times ahead of a 23 yr old young man.
But in looking back, I also look to now... where I am. and I cannot help but feel somewhat down. I have a "best friend" who made no contact with me on my birthday. It would have made sense if he were... in Africa doing missions... or well, that's about the only VALID excuse for someone to forget his best friend's birthday I think. Then again, I said "his" best friend's... maybe that's where I went wrong with my understanding.
It is just really lame, you know? can a person not take 20 seconds away from talking with his girlfriend he sees constantly to write a brief birthday message on Facebook? or take the 40 - 50 seconds to leave a QUICK voice mail wishing me a happy 23rd birthday? is that really too much? I mean, my brother's best friend and he actually do a gift exchange for birthdays. no, I don't want stuff from my best friend... but Dave and his bud see each other what? once a year? there seems to be more substance there than with a friend i've had since high school.
sorry if i seem to be in a emo-funk. But from where I sit... i've had at least two great friends of mine walk away in the past few months. maybe even how I wrote that was wrong. it's not necesarily their fault... i'm no perfect guy, by FAR. was it me? maybe if it were I could fix it. but when someone doesn't want to be your friend... whatever the friendship used to be... you can't just MAKE him or her be a friend.
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